Contrary to what I've always told myself, I've realized that I have been very extrinsically motivated. School has always come easy to me, and I think that in and of itself has pushed me to do my best in school. Instead of feeling like I could slack off, I felt like I had a reputation to uphold. Starting in kindergarten, I was always in the top of my class. Therefore, I had to continue to work hard and over achieve at times, so that my peers, my teachers, and my parents continued to view me as smart and as a good student. I didn't want to disappoint anyone. I worked hard so I could have the highest grade and the status and praise that came with it, and often this meant simply learning material for the sake of a test or assignment. It hasn't been until recently that I've noticed a switch in my motivating factors. While I still want to please my teachers and parents and one of my goals is still to achieve an A in my classes, I also am more interested in ensuring I actually comprehend the material. Instead of working for the grade, I'm working for the knowledge because I know that the material is relevant to my future career. I am passionate about teaching and helping students meet their full potential, but how can I expect to do so if I am not working to meet my full potential and learning all that I can? My experiences have made me question how to approach my students, though. My success in education was based largely on extrinsic motivators which too much, according to the book, can be a bad thing. What does the ideal balance of intrinsic and extrinsic motivation look like? Even if it means success, is too much extrinsic motivation really all that bad?
Another section of the book that I related to was the section about enhancing students' sense of relatedness. I remember looking up to my teachers and being motivated to please them because they respected and seemed to truly be interested in my success. My fourth grade teacher, in particular, made the greatest impact on me. That year my mom was diagnosed with cancer, so naturally it caused a lot of distractions in my life. My teacher made time each day to talk with me about anything I needed to, and she took the time to help me on assignments if I didn't complete them because I was at the hospital all night. She helped keep me interested in my school work since I wasn't getting the full attention and support I was used to having at home. Even though this extra support I needed was only temporary, I see how important it may be to provide it to those that don't receive any support from home. I hope to create an environment for my students in which they are comfortable to try new things and motivated do their best work because they know that I care whether they succeed or not. I think scheduling time each week to meet with each student could really help. Not only could it help build a reciprocal relationship, but it may help me learn about their interests in order to better plan lessons that will be intrinsically motivating for them.
The chapter really helped me realize how large of a role motivation plays in students' learning and planning instruction. Right now, it is a little overwhelming thinking that I need to reach out to twenty-some students with varying motivating factors and instruct and reward them in ways they will all find beneficial. However, I think a lot of that understanding will simply come with time. Also, after coming to understand my own personal motivating factors and experiences, I believe I have a better idea of how to begin approaching my future students.